So I've been asking myself if what I am feeling is right, and if so then what is organized church about? I feel like a lot of the traditions are just that...well meaning representations of truth. But when the traditions are all you have, you lose sight of the life in spontaneity.
Jesus said "I will build my Church". But I think that we as people have taken that upon ourselves. These traditions and programs were well meant, but God is not a business. You can't chart His growth as success, and treating the church as a business is all backwards.
I have discovered that God is very good at leading His people, and orchestrating His will.