Remain in me pt. 2

God, what do you have for me? What do you want me to do? In this place of waiting I am realizing the depth of my action based faith. I want to know how God will use me, I want to know where he'll take me. I want to know my purpose. I can't go one day without chomping at the bit.

Remain in Me.

Okay, done, now what?

No, remain in Me. 

Okay, got it! Now what?

No...remain in Me.

That is my purpose. That is my call.


Everything else will simply be an outpouring from this relationship. I begin by knowing Jesus, the Spirit. I can't work my way into that relationship.

Oswald Chamber's devotionals "My Utmost for His Highest" have been deeply challenging and nurturing to me. Here's an exerpt from today's reading:

The challenge to the missionary does not come from the fact that people are difficult to bring to salvation, that backsliders are difficult to reclaim, or that there is a barrier of callous indifference. No, the challenge comes from the perspective of the missionary's own personal relationship with Jesus Christ- "Do you believe that I am able to do this?" (Matt 9:28). Our Lord unwaveringly asks us that question, and it confronts us in every individual situation we encounter. The one great challenge to us is - do I know my risen Lord? Do I know the power of His indwelling Spirit? Am I wise enough in God's sight, but foolish enough according to the wisdom of the world, to trust in what Jesus Christ has said? Or am I abandoning the great supernatural position of limitless confidence in Christ Jesus, which is really God's only call for a missionary? If I follow any other method, I depart altogether from the methods prescribed by our Lord - "All authority has been given to Me...Go therefore..." (Matt 28: 18-19).

Remain in Me.

Maybe I'm not waiting after all.